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Iknewwhatitwasasshecametowardme.
FortenminutesIhadwatchedhertalkingearnestlywiththeengineer,andnow,withasignforsilence,Idrewheroutofearshotofthehelmsman.
Herfacewaswhiteandset;herlargeeyes,largerthanusualwhatofthepurposeinthem,lookedpenetratinglyintomine.
Ifeltrathertimidandapprehensive,forshehadcometosearchHumphreyVanWeyden’ssoul,andHumphreyVanWeydenhadnothingofwhichtobeparticularlyproudsincehisadventontheGhost.
Wewalkedtothebreakofthepoop,wheresheturnedandfacedme.Iglancedaroundtoseethatnoonewaswithinhearingdistance.
Whatisit?Iaskedgently;buttheexpressionofdeterminationonherfacedidnotrelax.
Icanreadilyunderstand,shebegan,thatthismorning’saffairwaslargelyanaccident;butIhavebeentalkingwithMr.Haskins.
Hetellsmethatthedaywewererescued,evenwhileIwasinthecabin,twomenweredrowned,deliberatelydrownedmurdered.
Therewasaqueryinhervoice,andshefacedmeaccusingly,asthoughIwereguiltyofthedeed,oratleastapartytoit.
Theinformationisquitecorrect,Ianswered.Thetwomenweremurdered.
Andyoupermittedit!shecried.
Iwasunabletopreventit,isabetterwayofphrasingit,Ireplied,stillgently.
Butyoutriedtopreventit?Therewasanemphasisonthetried,andapleadinglittlenoteinhervoice.
Oh,butyoudidn’t,shehurriedon,diviningmyanswer.Butwhydidn’tyou?
Ishruggedmyshoulders.Youmustremember,MissBrewster,thatyouareanewinhabitantofthislittleworld,andthatyoudonotyetunderstandthelawswhichoperatewithinit.
Youbringwithyoucertainfineconceptionsofhumanity,manhood,conduct,andsuchthings;buthereyouwillfindthemmisconceptions.
Ihavefounditso,Iadded,withaninvoluntarysigh.
Sheshookherheadincredulously.
Whatwouldyouadvise,then?Iasked.ThatIshouldtakeaknife,oragun,oranaxe,andkillthisman?
Shehalfstartedback.
No,notthat!
ThenwhatshouldIdo?Killmyself?
Youspeakinpurelymaterialisticterms,sheobjected.Thereissuchathingasmoralcourage,andmoralcourageisneverwithouteffect.
Ah,Ismiled,youadvisemetokillneitherhimnormyself,buttolethimkillme.
Iheldupmyhandasshewasabouttospeak.
Formoralcourageisaworthlessassetonthislittlefloatingworld.
Leach,oneofthemenwhoweremurdered,hadmoralcouragetoanunusualdegree.Sohadtheotherman,Johnson.
Notonlydiditnotstandthemingoodstead,butitdestroyedthem.
AndsowithmeifIshouldexercisewhatlittlemoralcourageImaypossess.
Youmustunderstand,MissBrewster,andunderstandclearly,thatthismanisamonster.Heiswithoutconscience.
Nothingissacredtohim,nothingistooterribleforhimtodo.
ItwasduetohiswhimthatIwasdetainedaboardinthefirstplace.
ItisduetohiswhimthatIamstillalive.
Idonothing,candonothing,becauseIamaslavetothismonster,asyouarenowaslavetohim;becauseIdesiretolive,asyouwilldesiretolive;becauseIcannotfightandovercomehim,justasyouwillnotbeabletofightandovercomehim.
Shewaitedformetogoon.
Whatremains?Mineistheroleoftheweak.
Iremainsilentandsufferignominy,asyouwillremainsilentandsufferignominy.Anditiswell.
Itisthebestwecandoifwewishtolive.Thebattleisnotalwaystothestrong.
Wehavenotthestrengthwithwhichtofightthisman;wemustdissimulate,andwin,ifwinwecan,bycraft.
Ifyouwillbeadvisedbyme,thisiswhatyouwilldo.
Iknowmypositionisperilous,andImaysayfranklythatyoursisevenmoreperilous.
Wemuststandtogether,withoutappearingtodoso,insecretalliance.
Ishallnotbeabletosidewithyouopenly,and,nomatterwhatindignitiesmaybeputuponme,youaretoremainlikewisesilent.
Wemustprovokenosceneswiththisman,norcrosshiswill.
Andwemustkeepsmilingfacesandbefriendlywithhimnomatterhowrepulsiveitmaybe.
Shebrushedherhandacrossherforeheadinapuzzledway,saying,StillIdonotunderstand.
YoumustdoasIsay,Iinterruptedauthoritatively,forIsawWolfLarsen’sgazewanderingtowardusfromwherehepacedupanddownwithLatimeramidships.
DoasIsay,anderelongyouwillfindIamright.
WhatshallIdo,then?sheasked,detectingtheanxiousglanceIhadshotattheobjectofourconversation,andimpressed,Iflattermyself,withtheearnestnessofmymanner.
Dispensewithallthemoralcourageyoucan,Isaidbriskly.Don’tarousethisman’sanimosity.
Bequitefriendlywithhim,talkwithhim,discussliteratureandartwithhimheisfondofsuchthings.
Youwillfindhimaninterestedlistenerandnofool.
Andforyourownsaketrytoavoidwitnessing,asmuchasyoucan,thebrutalitiesoftheship.
Itwillmakeiteasierforyoutoactyourpart.
Iamtolie,shesaidinsteady,rebellioustones,byspeechandactiontolie.
WolfLarsenhadseparatedfromLatimerandwascomingtowardus.Iwasdesperate.
Please,pleaseunderstandme,Isaidhurriedly,loweringmyvoice.
Allyourexperienceofmenandthingsisworthlesshere.Youmustbeginoveragain.
Iknow,Icanseeityouhave,amongotherways,beenusedtomanagingpeoplewithyoureyes,lettingyourmoralcouragespeakoutthroughthem,asitwere.
Youhavealreadymanagedmewithyoureyes,commandedmewiththem.Butdon’ttryitonWolfLarsen.
Youcouldaseasilycontrolalion,whilehewouldmakeamockofyou.
HewouldIhavealwaysbeenproudofthefactthatIdiscoveredhim,Isaid,turningtheconversationasWolfLarsensteppedonthepoopandjoinedus.
Theeditorswereafraidofhimandthepublisherswouldhavenoneofhim.
ButIknew,andhisgeniusandmyjudgmentwerevindicatedwhenhemadethatmagnificenthitwithhisForge.’
Anditwasanewspaperpoem,shesaidglibly.
Itdidhappentoseethelightinanewspaper,Ireplied,butnotbecausethemagazineeditorshadbeendeniedaglimpseatit.
WeweretalkingofHarris,IsaidtoWolfLarsen.
Oh,yes,heacknowledged.IremembertheForge.’
Filledwithprettysentimentsandanalmightyfaithinhumanillusions.
Bytheway,Mr.VanWeyden,you’dbetterlookinonCooky.He’scomplainingandrestless.
ThuswasIbluntlydismissedfromthepoop,onlytofindMugridgesleepingsoundlyfromthemorphineIhadgivenhim.
Imadenohastetoreturnondeck,andwhenIdidIwasgratifiedtoseeMissBrewsterinanimatedconversationwithWolfLarsen.AsIsay,thesightgratifiedme.Shewasfollowingmyadvice.
AndyetIwasconsciousofaslightshockorhurtinthatshewasabletodothethingIhadbeggedhertodoandwhichshehadnotablydisliked.
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