FORTWOMONTHSthefugitivesremainedabsent;inthosetwomonths,Mrs.Lintonencounteredandconqueredtheworstshockofwhatwasdenominatedabrainfever. NomothercouldhavenursedanonlychildmoredevotedlythanEdgartendedher. Dayandnighthewaswatching,andpatientlyenduringalltheannoyancesthatirritablenervesandashakenreasoncouldinflict;and,thoughKennethremarkedthatwhathesavedfromthegravewouldonlyrecompensehiscarebyformingthesourceofconstantfutureanxiety—infact,thathishealthandstrengthwerebeingsacrificedtopreserveamereruinofhumanity—heknewnolimitsingratitudeandjoywhenCatherine’slifewasdeclaredoutofdanger;andhourafterhourhewouldsitbesideher,tracingthegradualreturntobodilyhealth,andflatteringhistoosanguinehopeswiththeillusionthathermindwouldsettlebacktoitsrightbalancealso,andshewouldsoonbeentirelyherformerself. ThefirsttimesheleftherchamberwasatthecommencementofthefollowingMarch. Mr.Lintonhadputonherpillow,inthemorning,ahandfulofgoldencrocuses;hereye,longstrangertoanygleamofpleasure,caughttheminwaking,andshonedelightedasshegatheredthemeagerlytogether. “ThesearetheearliestflowersattheHeights,”sheexclaimed. “Theyremindmeofsoftthawwinds,andwarmsunshine,andnearlymeltedsnow. Edgar,istherenotasouthwind,andisnotthesnowalmostgone?” “Thesnowisquitegonedownhere,darling,”repliedherhusband;“andIonlyseetwowhitespotsonthewholerangeofmoors:theskyisblue,andthelarksaresinging,andthebecksandbrooksareallbrimfull. Catherine,lastspringatthistime,Iwaslongingtohaveyouunderthisroof,now,Iwishyouwereamileortwoupthosehills:theairblowssosweetly,Ifeelthatitwouldcureyou.” “Ishallneverbetherebutoncemore,”saidtheinvalid;“andthenyou’llleaveme,andIshallremainforever. Nextspringyou’lllongagaintohavemeunderthisroof,andyou’lllookbackandthinkyouwerehappyto-day.” Lintonlavishedonherthekindestcaresses,andtriedtocheerherbythefondestwords;but,vaguelyregardingtheflowers,sheletthetearscollectonherlashesandstreamdownhercheeksunheeding. Weknewshewasreallybetter,and,therefore,decidedthatlongconfinementtoasingleplaceproducedmuchofthisdespondency,anditmightbepartiallyremovedbyachangeofscene. Themastertoldmetolightafireinthemany-weeks-desertedparlour,andtosetaneasy-chairinthesunshinebythewindow;andthenhebroughtherdown,andshesatalongwhileenjoyingthegenialheat,and,asweexpected,revivedbytheobjectsroundher:which,thoughfamiliar,werefreefromthedrearyassociationsinvestingherhatedsickchamber. Byevening,sheseemedgreatlyexhausted;yetnoargumentscouldpersuadehertoreturntothatapartment,andIhadtoarrangetheparloursofaforherbed,tillanotherroomcouldbeprepared. Toobviatethefatigueofmountinganddescendingthestairs,wefittedupthis,whereyoulieatpresent:onthesamefloorwiththeparlour;andshewassoonstrongenoughtomovefromonetotheother,leaningonEdgar’sarm. Ah,Ithoughtmyselfshemightrecover,sowaitedonasshewas. Andtherewasdoublecausetodesireit,foronherexistencedependedthatofanother:wecherishedthehopethatinalittlewhile,Mr.Linton’sheartwouldbegladdened,andhislandssecuredfromastranger’sgripe,bythebirthofanheir. IshouldmentionthatIsabellasenttoherbrother,somesixweeksfromherdeparture,ashortnote,announcinghermarriagewithHeathcliff. Itappeareddryandcold;butatthebottomwasdottedinwithpencilanobscureapology,andanentreatyforkindremembranceandreconciliation,ifherproceedinghadoffendedhim:assertingthatshecouldnothelpitthen,andbeingdone,shehadnownopowertorepealit. Lintondidnotreplytothis,Ibelieve;and,inafortnightmore,IgotalongletterwhichIconsideredodd,comingfromthepenofabridejustoutofthehoneymoon.I’llreadit:forIkeepityet. Anyrelicofthedeadisprecious,iftheywerevaluedliving. IcamelastnighttoWutheringHeights,andheard,forthefirsttime,thatCatherinehasbeen,andisyet,veryill. Imustnotwritetoher,Isuppose,andmybrotheriseithertooangryortoodistressedtoanswerwhatIsenthim. Still,Imustwritetosomebody,andtheonlychoiceleftmeisyou. InformEdgarthatI’dgivetheworldtoseehisfaceagain—thatmyheartreturnedtoThrushcrossGrangeintwenty-fourhoursafterIleftit,andisthereatthismoment,fullofwarmfeelingsforhim,andCatherine! Ican’tfollowit,though—(thosewordsareunderlined)theyneednotexpectme,andtheymaydrawwhatconclusionstheyplease;takingcare,however,tolaynothingatthedoorofmyweakwillordeficientaffection. Theremainderoftheletterisforyourselfalone. Iwanttoaskyoutwoquestions:thefirstis—Howdidyoucontrivetopreservethecommonsympathiesofhumannaturewhenyouresidedhere? Icannotrecogniseanysentimentwhichthosearoundsharewithme. Thesecondquestion,Ihavegreatinterestin,—IsMr.Heathcliffaman?Ifso,ishemad?Andifnot,isheadevil? Ishan’ttellmyreasonsformakingthisenquiry;but,Ibeeseechyoutoexplain,ifyoucan,whatIhavemarried:thatis,whenyoucalltoseeme;andyoumustcall,Ellen,verysoon. Don’twrite,butcome,andbringmesomethingfromEdgar. Now,youshallhearhowIhavebeenreceivedinmynewhome,asIamledtoimaginetheHeightswillbe. ItistoamusemyselfthatIdwellonsuchsubjectsasthelackofexternalcomforts:theyneveroccupymythoughts,exceptatthemomentwhenImissthem. Ishouldlaughanddanceforjoy,ifIfoundtheirabsencewasthetotalofmymiseries,andtherestwasanunnaturaldream! ThesunsetbehindtheGrange,asweturnedontothemoors;bythat,Ijudgeittobesixo’clock;andmycompanionhaltedhalf-an-hour,toinspectthepark,andthegardens,and,probably,theplaceitself,aswellashecould;soitwasdarkwhenwedismountedinthepavedyardofthefarm-house,andyouroldfellow-servant,Joseph,issuedouttoreceiveusbythelightofadipcandle. Hediditwithacourtesythatredoundedtohiscredit. Hisfirstactwastoelevatehistorchtoalevelwithmyface,squintmalignantly,projecthisunderlip,andturnaway. Thenhetookthetwohorses,andledthemintothestables;reappearingforthepurposeoflockingtheoutergate,asifwelivedinanancientcastle. Heathcliffstayedtospeaktohim,andIenteredthekitchen—adingy,untidyhole;Idaresayyouwouldnotknowit,itissochangedsinceitwasinyourcharge. Bythefirestoodaruffianlychild,stronginlimbanddirtyingarb,withalookofCatherineinhiseyesandabouthismouth. “ThisisEdgar’slegalnephew,”Ireflected—“mineinamanner;Imustshakehands,and—yes—Imustkisshim.Itisrighttoestablishagoodunderstandingatthebeginning.” Iapproached,and,attemptingtotakehischubbyfist,said: HerepliedinajargonIdidnotcomprehend. “ShallyouandIbefriends,Hareton?”wasmynextessayatconversation. Anoath,andathreattosetThrottleronmeifIdidnot“frameoff,”rewardedmyperseverance. “Hey,Throttler,lad!”whisperedthelittlewretch,rousingahalf-bredbull-dogfromitslairinacorner.“Now,wiltthoubeganging?”heaskedauthoritatively. Loveformylifeurgedacompliance;Isteppedoverthethresholdtowaittilltheothersshouldenter. Mr.Heathcliffwasnowherevisible;andJoseph,whomIfollowedtothestables,andrequestedtoaccompanymein,afterstaringandmutteringtohimself,screweduphisnose,andreplied: “Mim!mim!mim!DidiverChristianbodyhearaughtlikeit?Minchingun’munching!HowcanItellwhetyesay?” “Isay,Iwishyoutocomewithmeintothehouse!”Icried,thinkinghimdeaf,yethighlydisgustedathisrudeness. “Noneo’me!Igettensummutelsetodo,”heanswered,andcontinuedhiswork;movinghislanternjawsmeanwhile,andsurveyingmydressandcountenance(theformeragreatdealtoofine,butthelatter,I’msure,assadashecoulddesire)withsovereigncontempt. Iwalkedroundtheyard,andthroughawicket,toanotherdoor,atwhichItookthelibertyofknocking,inhopessomemorecivilservantmightshowhimself. Afterashortsuspense,itwasopenedbyatall,gauntman,withoutneckerchief,andotherwiseextremelyslovenly;hisfeatureswerelostinmassesofshaggyhairthathungonhisshoulders;andhiseyes,too,werelikeaghostlyCatherine’swithalltheirbeautyannihilated. “What’syourbusinesshere?”hedemandedgrimly.“Whoareyou?” “MynamewasIsabellaLinton,”Ireplied.“You’veseenmebefore,sir.I’mlatelymarriedtoMr.Heathcliff,andhehasbroughtmehere—Isupposebyyourpermission.” “Ishecomeback,then?”askedthehermit,glaringlikeahungrywolf. “Yes—wecamejustnow,”Isaid;“butheleftmebythekitchendoor;andwhenIwouldhavegonein,yourlittleboyplayedsentinelovertheplace,andfrightenedmeoffbythehelpofabull-dog.” “It’swellthehellishvillainhaskepthisword!” growledmyfuturehost,searchingthedarknessbeyondmeinexpectationofdiscoveringHeathcliff;andthenheindulgedinasoliloquyofexecrations,andthreatsofwhathewouldhavedonehadthe“fiend”deceivedhim. Irepentedhavingtriedthissecondentrance,andwasalmostinclinedtoslipawaybeforehefinishedcursing,butereIcouldexecutethatintention,heorderedmein,andshutandre-fastenedthedoor. Therewasagreatfire,andthatwasallthelightinthehugeapartment,whosefloorhadgrownauniformgrey;andtheoncebrilliantpewterdishes,whichusedtoattractmygazewhenIwasagirl,partookofasimilarobscurity,createdbytarnishanddust. IenquiredwhetherImightcallthemaid,andbeconductedtoabed-room?Mr.Earnshawvouchsafednoanswer. Hewalkedupanddown,withhishandsinhispockets,apparentlyquiteforgettingmypresence;andhisabstractionwasevidentlysodeep,andhiswholeaspectsomisanthropical,thatIshrankfromdisturbinghimagain. You’llnotbesurprised,Ellen,atmyfeelingparticularlycheerless,seatedinworsethansolitudeonthatinhospitablehearth,andrememberingthatfourmilesdistantlaymydelightfulhome,containingtheonlypeopleIlovedonearth;andtheremightaswellbetheAtlantictopartus,insteadofthosefourmiles:Icouldnotoverpassthem! Iquestionedwithmyself—wheremustIturnforcomfort? and—mindyou,don’ttellEdgar,orCatherine—aboveeverysorrowbeside,thisrosepre-eminent:despairatfindingnobodywhocouldorwouldbemyallyagainstHeathcliff! IhadsoughtshelteratWutheringHeights,almostgladly,becauseIwassecuredbythatarrangementfromlivingalonewithhim;butheknewthepeoplewewerecomingamongst,andhedidnotfeartheirintermeddling. Isatandthoughtadolefultime:theclockstruckeight,andnine,andstillmycompanionpacedtoandfro,hisheadbentonhisbreast,andperfectlysilent,unlessagroanorabitterejaculationforceditselfoutatintervals. Ilistenedtodetectawoman’svoiceinthehouse,andfilledtheinterimwithwildregretsanddismalanticipations,which,atlast,spokeaudiblyinirrepressiblesighingandweeping. IwasnotawarehowopenlyIgrieved,tillEarnshawhaltedopposite,inhismeasuredwalk,andgavemeastareofnewly-awakenedsurprise. Takingadvantageofhisrecoveredattention,Iexclaimed: “I’mtiredwithmyjourney,andIwanttogotobed!Whereisthemaid-servant?Directmetoher,asshewon’tcometome!” “Wehavenone,”heanswered,“youmustwaitonyourself!” “WheremustIsleep,then?”Isobbed:Iwasbeyondregardingself-respect,weigheddownbyfatigueandwretchedness. “JosephwillshowyouHeathcliff’schamber,”saidhe;“openthatdoor—he’sinthere.” Iwasgoingtoobey,buthesuddenlyarrestedme,andaddedinthestrangesttone: “Besogoodastoturnyourlock,anddrawyourbolt—don’tomitit!” “Well!”Isaid.“Butwhy,Mr.Earnshaw?”IdidnotrelishthenotionofdeliberatelyfasteningmyselfinwithHeathcliff. “Lookhere!”hereplied,pullingfromhiswaist-coatacuriouslyconstructedpistol,havingadouble-edgedspringknifeattachedtothebarrel. “That’sagreattemptertoadesperateman,isitnot? Icannotresistgoingupwiththiseverynight,andtryinghisdoor.IfonceIfinditopenhe’sdonefor! Idoitinvariably,eventhoughtheminutebeforeIhavebeenrecallingahundredreasonsthatshouldmakemerefrain:itissomedevilthaturgesmetothwartmyownschemesbykillinghim. Youfightagainstthatdevilforloveaslongasyoumay;whenthetimecomes,notalltheangelsinheavenshallsavehim!” Isurveyedtheweaponinquisitively.Ahideousnotionstruckme:howpowerfulIshouldbepossessingsuchaninstrument! Itookitfromhishand,andtouchedtheblade. Helookedastonishedattheexpressionmyfaceassumedduringabriefsecond:itwasnothorror,itwascovetousness. Hesnatchedthepistolback,jealously;shuttheknife,andreturnedittoitsconcealment. “Idon’tcareifyoutellhim,”saidhe.“puthimonhisguard,andwatchforhim.Youknowthetermsweareon,Isee:hisdangerdoesnotshockyou.” “WhathasHeathcliffdonetoyou?”Iasked.“Inwhathashewrongedyou,towarrantthisappallinghatred?Wouldn’titbewisertobidhimquitthehouse?” “No!”thunderedEarnshaw,“shouldheoffertoleaveme,he’sadeadman:persuadehimtoattemptit,andyouareamurderess! AmItoloseall,withoutachanceofretrieval?IsHaretontobeabeggar?Oh,damnation! Iwillhaveitback;andI’llhavehisgoldtoo;andthenhisblood;andhellshallhavehissoul! Itwillbetentimesblackerwiththatguestthaneveritwasbefore!” You’veacquaintedme,Ellen,withyouroldmaster’shabits. Heisclearlyonthevergeofmadness:hewassolastnightatleast. Ishudderedtobenearhim,andthoughtontheservant’sill-bredmorosenessascomparativelyagreeable. Henowrecommencedhismoodywalk,andIraisedthelatch,andescapedintothekitchen. Josephwasbendingoverthefire,peeringintoalargepanthatswungaboveit;andawoodenbowlofoatmealstoodonthesettlecloseby. Thecontentsofthepanbegantoboll,andheturnedtoplungehishandintothebowl;Iconjecturedthatthispreparationwasprobablyforoursupper,and,beinghungry,Iresolveditshouldbeeatable;so,cryingoutsharply,“I’llmaketheporridge!” Iremovedthevesseloutofhisreach,andproceededtotakeoffmyhatandridinghabit. “Mr.Earnshaw,”Icontinued,“directsmetowaitonmyself:Iwill. I’mnotgoingtoacttheladyamongyou,forfearIshouldstarve.” “GooidLord!”hemuttered,sittingdown,andstrokinghisribbedstockingsfromthekneetotheankle. “Ifthere’stobefreshotherings—justwhenIgettenusedtotwomaisters,ifImunhevamistressseto’ermyheead,it’sliketimetobeflitting. Iniverdidthinktoseet’daythatImudlaveth’owldplace—butIdoubtit’snightathand!” Thislamentationdrewnonoticefromme:Iwentbrisklytowork,sighingtorememberaperiodwhenitwouldhavebeenallmerryfun;butcompelledspeedilytodriveofftheremembrance. Itrackedmetorecallpasthappiness,andthegreaterperiltherewasofconjuringupitsapparition,thequickerthethibleranround,andthefasterthehandfulsofmealfellintothewater. Josephbeheldmystyleofcookerywithgrowingindignation. “Thear!”heejaculated,“Hareton,thouwilln’tsupthyporridgetoneeght;they’llbenaughtbutlumpsasbigasmyneive.Thear,agean!I’dflinginbowlunall,ifIwerye! There,palet’gulipoff,un’thenye’llhaedonewi’t.Bang,bang. It’samercyt’bothomisn’tdeavedout!” Itwasratheraroughmess,Iown,whenpouredintothebasins;fourhadbeenprovided,andagallonpitcherofnewmilkwasbroughtfromthedairy,whichHaretonseizedandcomenceddrinkingandspillingfromtheexpansivelip. Iexpostulated,anddesiredthatheshouldhavehisinamug;affirmingthatIcouldnottastetheliquidtreatedsodirtily. Theoldcynicchosetobevastlyoffendedatthisnicety;assuringme,repeatedly,that“thebairnwaseverybitasgood”asI,“andeverybitaswollsome,”andwonderinghowIcouldfashiontobesoconceited. Meanwhile,theinfantruffiancontinuedsucking;andgloweredatmedefyingly,asheslaveredintothejug. “Ishallhavemysupperinanotherroom,”Isaid.“Haveyounoplaceyoucallaparlour?” “Parlour!”heechoedsneeringly,“parlour!Nay,we’venoaparlours.Ifyahdunnutloikewercompany,there’smaister’s;un’ifyahdunnotloikemaister,there’sus.” “ThenIshallgoupstairs!”Ianswered;“showmeachamber.” Iputmybasinonatray,andwentmyselftofetchsomemoremilk. Withgreatgrumblings,thefellowrose,andprecededmeinmyascent:wemountedtothegarrets;heopenedadoor,nowandthen,tolookintotheapartmentswepassed. “Here’sarahm,”hesaid,atlast,flingingbackacrankyboardonhinges. “It’sweeleneughtoateafewporridgein. There’sapacko’corni’t’corner,thear,meeterlyclane;ifye’refeardo’muckyingyergrandsilkcloes,spreadyerhankerchiro’t’topon’t.” The“rahm”wasakindoflumberholesmellingstrongofmaltandgrain;varioussacksofwhicharticleswerepiledaround,leavingawide,barespaceinthemiddle. “Why,man!”Iexclaimed,facinghimangrily,“thisisnotaplacetosleepin.Iwishtoseemybedroom.” “Bed-rume!”lierepeated,inatoneofmockery.“Yah’sseeallt’bed-rumesthearis—yon’smine.” Hepointedintothesecondgarret,onlydifferingfromthefirstinbeingmorenakedaboutthewalls,andhavingalargelow,curtainedbed,withanindigo-colouredquiltatoneend. “WhatdoIwantwithyours?”Iretorted.“IsupposeMr.Heathcliffdoesnotlodgeatthetopofthehouse,doeshe?” “Oh!it’sMaisterHathecliff’sye’rewanting!”criedhe,asifmakinganewdiscovery.“Couldn’tyeha’saidsoa,atonst? unthen,Imudha’telledye,bahtallthiswark,thatthat’sjustoneyecannutsee—heallaskeepsitlocked,unnob’dyivermellson’tbuthisseln.” “You’veanicehouse,Joseph,”Icouldnotrefrainfromobserving,“andpleasantinmates;andIthinktheconcentratedessenceofallthemadnessintheworldtookupitsabodeinmybrainthedayIlinkedmyfatewiththeirs! However,thatisnottothepresentpurpose—thereareotherrooms. Forheaven’ssakebequick,andletmesettlesomewhere!” Hemadenoreplytothisadjuration;onlyploddingdoggedlydownthewoodensteps,andhaltingbeforeanapartmentwhich,fromthathaltandthesuperiorqualityofitsfurniture,Iconjecturedtobethebestone. Therewasacarpet:agoodone,butthepatternwasobliteratedbydust;afireplacehungwithcutpaper,droppingtopieces,ahandsomeoakbedsteadwithamplecrimsoncurtainsofratherexpensivematerialandmodernmake;buttheyhadevidentlyexperiencedroughusage:thevalanceshunginfestoons,wrenchedfromtheirrings,andtheironrodsupportingthemwasbentinanarcononeside,causingthedraperytotrailuponthefloor. Thechairswerealsodamaged,manyofthemseverely;anddeepindentationsdeformedthepanelsofthewalls. Iwasendeavouringtogatherresolutionforenteringandtakingpossession,whenmyfoolofaguideannounced,“Thishereist’maister’s.” Mysupperbythistimewascold,myappetitegone,andmypatienceexhausted. Iinsistedonbeingprovidedinstantlywithaplaceofrefuge,andmeansofrepose. “Whearthedivil?”beganthereligiouselder.“TheLordblessus!TheLordforgieus!Whearthehellwoldyegang?yemarried,wearisomenowt! Ye’veseenallbutHareton’sbitofcham’er. There’snotanotherhoiletoligdownini’th’hahse!” Iwassovexed,Iflungmytrayanditscontentsontheground;andthenseatedmyselfatthestairs-head,hidmyfaceinmyhands,andcried. “Ech!ech!”exclaimedJoseph.“Weeldone,MissCathy!weeldone,MissCathy! Howsiver,t’maistersalljusttum’leo’erthembrockenpots;un’thenwe’shearsummut;we’shearhowit’stobe.Gooid-for-naughtmadling! yedesarvepiningfro’thistoChurstmas,flingingt’preciousgiftso’Godunderfooiti’yerflaysomerages! But,I’mmista’enifyeshowyersperritlang. WillHathecliffbidesichbonnyways,thinkye? Inobbutwishhemaycatchyei’thatplisky.Inobbutwishhemay.” Andsohewentonscoldingtohisdenbeneath,takingthecandlewithhim;andIremainedinthedark. Theperiodofreflectionsucceedingthissillyaction,compelledmetoadmitthenecessityofsmotheringmyprideandchokingmywrath,andbestirringmyselftoremoveitseffects. AnunexpectedaidpresentlyappearedintheshapeThrottler,whomInowrecognizedasasonofouroldSkulker:ithadspentitswhelphoodattheGrange,andwasgivenbymyfathertoMr.Hindley. Ifancyitknewme:itpusheditsnoseagainstminebywayofsalute,andthenhastenedtodevourtheporridge;whileIgropedfromsteptostep,collectingtheshatteredearthenware,anddryingthespattersofmilkfromthebanisterwithmypocket-handkerchief. OurlabourswerescarcelyoverwhenIheardEarnshaw’streadinthepassage;myassistanttuckedinhistail,andpressedtothewall;Istoleintothenearestdoorway. Thedog’sendeavourtovoidhimwasunsuccessful;asIguessedbyascutterdownstairs,andaprolonged,piteousyelping.Ihadbetterluck! hepassedon,enteredhischamber,andshutthedoor. DirectlyafterJosephcameupwithHareton,toputhimtobed. IhadfoundshelterinHareton’sroom,andtheoldman,onseeingme,said: “They’srahmforboathyeunyerpride,now,Isudthink,i’thehahse.It’sempty;yemayhevitalltoyerseln,unHimasallasmakesathird,i’sichillcompany!” GladlydidItakeadvantageofthisintimation;andtheminuteIflungmyselfintoachair,bythefire,Inodded,andslept. Myslumberwasdeepandsweet,thoughoverfartoosoon. Mr.Heathcliffawokeme;hehadjustcomein,anddemanded,inhislovingmanner,whatIwasdoingthere? Itoldhimthecauseofmystayingupsolate—thathehadthekeyofourroominhispocket.Theadjectiveourgavemortaloffence. Hesworeitwasnot,norevershouldbe,mine;andhe’d—ButI’llnotrepeathislanguage,nordescribehishabitualconduct. Heisingeniousandunrestinginseekingtogainmyabhorrence! Isometimeswonderathimwithanintensitythatdeadensmyfear:yet,Iassureyou,atigeroravenomousserpentcouldnotrouseterrorinmeequaltothatwhichhewakens. HetoldmeofCatherine’sillness,andaccusedmybrotherofcausingit;promisingthatIshouldbeEdgar’sproxyinsuffering,tillhecouldgetholdofhim. Idohatehim—Iamwretched—Ihavebeenafool!BewareofutteringonebreathofthistoanyoneattheGrange.Ishallexpectyoueveryday—don’tdisappointme!