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Marillalaidherknittingonherlapandleanedbackinherchair.
Hereyesweretired,andshethoughtvaguelythatshemustseeabouthavingherglasseschangedthenexttimeshewenttotown,forhereyeshadgrowntiredveryoftenoflate.
Itwasnearlydark,forthefullNovembertwilighthadfallenaroundGreenGables,andtheonlylightinthekitchencamefromthedancingredflamesinthestove.
AnnewascurledupTurk-fashiononthehearthrug,gazingintothatjoyousglowwherethesunshineofahundredsummerswasbeingdistilledfromthemaplecordwood.
Shehadbeenreading,butherbookhadslippedtothefloor,andnowshewasdreaming,withasmileonherpartedlips.
GlitteringcastlesinSpainwereshapingthemselvesoutofthemistsandrainbowsofherlivelyfancy;adventureswonderfulandenthrallingwerehappeningtoherincloudlandadventuresthatalwaysturnedouttriumphantlyandneverinvolvedherinscrapeslikethoseofactuallife.
Marillalookedatherwithatendernessthatwouldneverhavebeensufferedtorevealitselfinanyclearerlightthanthatsoftminglingoffireshineandshadow.
ThelessonofalovethatshoulddisplayitselfeasilyinspokenwordandopenlookwasoneMarillacouldneverlearn.
Butshehadlearnedtolovethisslim,gray-eyedgirlwithanaffectionallthedeeperandstrongerfromitsveryundemonstrativeness.
Herlovemadeherafraidofbeingundulyindulgent,indeed.
Shehadanuneasyfeelingthatitwasrathersinfultosetone’sheartsointenselyonanyhumancreatureasshehadsethersonAnne,andperhapssheperformedasortofunconsciouspenanceforthisbybeingstricterandmorecriticalthanifthegirlhadbeenlessdeartoher.
CertainlyAnneherselfhadnoideahowMarillalovedher.
ShesometimesthoughtwistfullythatMarillawasveryhardtopleaseanddistinctlylackinginsympathyandunderstanding.
Butshealwayscheckedthethoughtreproachfully,rememberingwhatsheowedtoMarilla.
Anne,saidMarillaabruptly,MissStacywasherethisafternoonwhenyouwereoutwithDiana.
Annecamebackfromherotherworldwithastartandasigh.
Wasshe?Oh,I’msosorryIwasn’tin.Whydidn’tyoucallme,Marilla?
DianaandIwereonlyoverintheHauntedWood.It’slovelyinthewoodsnow.
Allthelittlewoodthingsthefernsandthesatinleavesandthecrackerberrieshavegonetosleep,justasifsomebodyhadtuckedthemawayuntilspringunderablanketofleaves.
Ithinkitwasalittlegrayfairywitharainbowscarfthatcametiptoeingalongthelastmoonlightnightanddidit.
Dianawouldn’tsaymuchaboutthat,though.
DianahasneverforgottenthescoldinghermothergaveheraboutimaginingghostsintotheHauntedWood.
IthadaverybadeffectonDiana’simagination.Itblightedit.
Mrs.LyndesaysMyrtleBellisablightedbeing.
IaskedRubyGilliswhyMyrtlewasblighted,andRubysaidsheguesseditwasbecauseheryoungmanhadgonebackonher.
RubyGillisthinksofnothingbutyoungmen,andtheoldershegetstheworsesheis.
Youngmenareallverywellintheirplace,butitdoesn’tdotodragthemintoeverything,doesit?
DianaandIarethinkingseriouslyofpromisingeachotherthatwewillnevermarrybutbeniceoldmaidsandlivetogetherforever.
Dianahasn’tquitemadeuphermindthough,becauseshethinksperhapsitwouldbenoblertomarrysomewild,dashing,wickedyoungmanandreformhim.
DianaandItalkagreatdealaboutserioussubjectsnow,youknow.
Wefeelthatwearesomucholderthanweusedtobethatitisn’tbecomingtotalkofchildishmatters.
It’ssuchasolemnthingtobealmostfourteen,Marilla.
MissStacytookallusgirlswhoareinourteensdowntothebrooklastWednesday,andtalkedtousaboutit.
Shesaidwecouldn’tbetoocarefulwhathabitsweformedandwhatidealsweacquiredinourteens,becausebythetimeweweretwentyourcharacterswouldbedevelopedandthefoundationlaidforourwholefuturelife.
Andshesaidifthefoundationwasshakywecouldneverbuildanythingreallyworthwhileonit.
DianaandItalkedthematterovercominghomefromschool.Wefeltextremelysolemn,Marilla.
Andwedecidedthatwewouldtrytobeverycarefulindeedandformrespectablehabitsandlearnallwecouldandbeassensibleaspossible,sothatbythetimeweweretwentyourcharacterswouldbeproperlydeveloped.
It’sperfectlyappallingtothinkofbeingtwenty,Marilla.
Itsoundssofearfullyoldandgrownup.
ButwhywasMissStacyherethisafternoon?
ThatiswhatIwanttotellyou,Anne,ifyou’llevergivemeachancetogetawordinedgewise.Shewastalkingaboutyou.
Aboutme?Annelookedratherscared.Thensheflushedandexclaimed:
Oh,Iknowwhatshewassaying.Imeanttotellyou,Marilla,honestlyIdid,butIforgot.
MissStacycaughtmereadingBenHurinschoolyesterdayafternoonwhenIshouldhavebeenstudyingmyCanadianhistory.JaneAndrewslentittome.
Iwasreadingitatdinnerhour,andIhadjustgottothechariotracewhenschoolwentin.
IwassimplywildtoknowhowitturnedoutalthoughIfeltsureBenHurmustwin,becauseitwouldn’tbepoeticaljusticeifhedidn’tsoIspreadthehistoryopenonmydesklidandthentuckedBenHurbetweenthedeskandmyknee.
IjustlookedasifIwerestudyingCanadianhistory,youknow,whileallthewhileIwasrevelinginBenHur.
IwassointerestedinitthatInevernoticedMissStacycomingdowntheaisleuntilallatonceIjustlookedupandthereshewaslookingdownatme,soreproachful-like.
Ican’ttellyouhowashamedIfelt,Marilla,especiallywhenIheardJosiePyegiggling.
MissStacytookBenHuraway,butsheneversaidawordthen.
Shekeptmeinatrecessandtalkedtome.
ShesaidIhaddoneverywrongintworespects.
First,IwaswastingthetimeIoughttohaveputonmystudies;andsecondly,IwasdeceivingmyteacherintryingtomakeitappearIwasreadingahistorywhenitwasastorybookinstead.
Ihadneverrealizeduntilthatmoment,Marilla,thatwhatIwasdoingwasdeceitful.Iwasshocked.
Icriedbitterly,andaskedMissStacytoforgivemeandI’dneverdosuchathingagain;andIofferedtodopenancebyneversomuchaslookingatBenHurforawholeweek,noteventoseehowthechariotraceturnedout.
ButMissStacysaidshewouldn’trequirethat,andsheforgavemefreely.
SoIthinkitwasn’tverykindofhertocomeupheretoyouaboutitafterall.
MissStacynevermentionedsuchathingtome,Anne,anditsonlyyourguiltyconsciencethat’sthematterwithyou.
Youhavenobusinesstobetakingstorybookstoschool.Youreadtoomanynovelsanyhow.
WhenIwasagirlIwasn’tsomuchasallowedtolookatanovel.
Oh,howcanyoucallBenHuranovelwhenit’sreallysuchareligiousbook?protestedAnne.
Ofcourseit’salittletooexcitingtobeproperreadingforSunday,andIonlyreaditonweekdays.
AndIneverreadANYbooknowunlesseitherMissStacyorMrs.Allanthinksitisaproperbookforagirlthirteenandthree-quarterstoread.MissStacymademepromisethat.
Shefoundmereadingabookonedaycalled,TheLuridMysteryoftheHauntedHall.
ItwasoneRubyGillishadlentme,and,oh,Marilla,itwassofascinatingandcreepy.Itjustcurdledthebloodinmyveins.
ButMissStacysaiditwasaverysilly,unwholesomebook,andsheaskedmenottoreadanymoreofitoranylikeit.
Ididn’tmindpromisingnottoreadanymorelikeit,butitwasAGONIZINGtogivebackthatbookwithoutknowinghowitturnedout.
ButmyloveforMissStacystoodthetestandIdid.
It’sreallywonderful,Marilla,whatyoucandowhenyou’retrulyanxioustopleaseacertainperson.
Well,IguessI’lllightthelampandgettowork,saidMarilla.
Iseeplainlythatyoudon’twanttohearwhatMissStacyhadtosay.
You’remoreinterestedinthesoundofyourowntonguethaninanythingelse.
Oh,indeed,Marilla,Idowanttohearit,criedAnnecontritely.Iwon’tsayanotherwordnotone.
IknowItalktoomuch,butIamreallytryingtoovercomeit,andalthoughIsayfartoomuch,yetifyouonlyknewhowmanythingsIwanttosayanddon’t,you’dgivemesomecreditforit.Pleasetellme,Marilla.
Well,MissStacywantstoorganizeaclassamongheradvancedstudentswhomeantostudyfortheentranceexaminationintoQueen’s.
Sheintendstogivethemextralessonsforanhourafterschool.
AndshecametoaskMatthewandmeifwewouldliketohaveyoujoinit.
Whatdoyouthinkaboutityourself,Anne?
WouldyouliketogotoQueen’sandpassforateacher?
Oh,Marilla!Annestraightenedtoherkneesandclaspedherhands.
It’sbeenthedreamofmylifethatis,forthelastsixmonths,eversinceRubyandJanebegantotalkofstudyingfortheEntrance.
ButIdidn’tsayanythingaboutit,becauseIsupposeditwouldbeperfectlyuseless.I’dlovetobeateacher.Butwon’titbedreadfullyexpensive?
Mr.AndrewssaysitcosthimonehundredandfiftydollarstoputPrissythrough,andPrissywasn’tadunceingeometry.
Iguessyouneedn’tworryaboutthatpartofit.
WhenMatthewandItookyoutobringupweresolvedwewoulddothebestwecouldforyouandgiveyouagoodeducation.
Ibelieveinagirlbeingfittedtoearnherownlivingwhethersheeverhastoornot.
You’llalwayshaveahomeatGreenGablesaslongasMatthewandIarehere,butnobodyknowswhatisgoingtohappeninthisuncertainworld,andit’sjustaswelltobeprepared.
SoyoucanjointheQueen’sclassifyoulike,Anne.
Oh,Marilla,thankyou.AnneflungherarmsaboutMarilla’swaistandlookedupearnestlyintoherface.
I’mextremelygratefultoyouandMatthew.
AndI’llstudyashardasIcananddomyverybesttobeacredittoyou.
Iwarnyounottoexpectmuchingeometry,butIthinkIcanholdmyowninanythingelseifIworkhard.
Idaresayyou’llgetalongwellenough.
MissStacysaysyouarebrightanddiligent.
NotforworldswouldMarillahavetoldAnnejustwhatMissStacyhadsaidabouther;thatwouldhavebeentopampervanity.
Youneedn’trushtoanyextremeofkillingyourselfoveryourbooks.Thereisnohurry.
Youwon’tbereadytotrytheEntranceforayearandahalfyet.
Butit’swelltobeginintimeandbethoroughlygrounded,MissStacysays.
Ishalltakemoreinterestthaneverinmystudiesnow,saidAnneblissfully,becauseIhaveapurposeinlife.
Mr.Allansayseverybodyshouldhaveapurposeinlifeandpursueitfaithfully.
Onlyhesayswemustfirstmakesurethatitisaworthypurpose.
IwouldcallitaworthypurposetowanttobeateacherlikeMissStacy,wouldn’tyou,Marilla?Ithinkit’saverynobleprofession.
TheQueen’sclasswasorganizedinduetime.
GilbertBlythe,AnneShirley,RubyGillis,JaneAndrews,JosiePye,CharlieSloane,andMoodySpurgeonMacPhersonjoinedit.
DianaBarrydidnot,asherparentsdidnotintendtosendhertoQueen’s.
ThisseemednothingshortofacalamitytoAnne.
Never,sincethenightonwhichMinnieMayhadhadthecroup,hadsheandDianabeenseparatedinanything.
OntheeveningwhentheQueen’sclassfirstremainedinschoolfortheextralessonsandAnnesawDianagoslowlyoutwiththeothers,towalkhomealonethroughtheBirchPathandVioletVale,itwasalltheformercoulddotokeepherseatandrefrainfromrushingimpulsivelyafterherchum.
Alumpcameintoherthroat,andshehastilyretiredbehindthepagesofherupliftedLatingrammartohidethetearsinhereyes.
NotforworldswouldAnnehavehadGilbertBlytheorJosiePyeseethosetears.
But,oh,Marilla,IreallyfeltthatIhadtastedthebitternessofdeath,asMr.AllansaidinhissermonlastSunday,whenIsawDianagooutalone,shesaidmournfullythatnight.
IthoughthowsplendiditwouldhavebeenifDianahadonlybeengoingtostudyfortheEntrance,too.
Butwecan’thavethingsperfectinthisimperfectworld,asMrs.Lyndesays.
Mrs.Lyndeisn’texactlyacomfortingpersonsometimes,butthere’snodoubtshesaysagreatmanyverytruethings.
AndIthinktheQueen’sclassisgoingtobeextremelyinteresting.
JaneandRubyarejustgoingtostudytobeteachers.Thatistheheightoftheirambition.
Rubysaysshewillonlyteachfortwoyearsaftershegetsthrough,andthensheintendstobemarried.
Janesaysshewilldevoteherwholelifetoteaching,andnever,nevermarry,becauseyouarepaidasalaryforteaching,butahusbandwon’tpayyouanything,andgrowlsifyouaskforashareintheeggandbuttermoney.
IexpectJanespeaksfrommournfulexperience,forMrs.Lyndesaysthatherfatherisaperfectoldcrank,andmeanerthansecondskimmings.
JosiePyesayssheisjustgoingtocollegeforeducation’ssake,becauseshewon’thavetoearnherownliving;shesaysofcourseitisdifferentwithorphanswhoarelivingoncharityTHEYhavetohustle.
MoodySpurgeonisgoingtobeaminister.
Mrs.Lyndesayshecouldn’tbeanythingelsewithanamelikethattoliveupto.
Ihopeitisn’twickedofme,Marilla,butreallythethoughtofMoodySpurgeonbeingaministermakesmelaugh.
He’ssuchafunny-lookingboywiththatbigfatface,andhislittleblueeyes,andhisearsstickingoutlikeflaps.
Butperhapshewillbemoreintellectuallookingwhenhegrowsup.
CharlieSloanesayshe’sgoingtogointopoliticsandbeamemberofParliament,butMrs.Lyndesayshe’llneversucceedatthat,becausetheSloanesareallhonestpeople,andit’sonlyrascalsthatgetoninpoliticsnowadays.
WhatisGilbertBlythegoingtobe?queriedMarilla,seeingthatAnnewasopeningherCaesar.
Idon’thappentoknowwhatGilbertBlythe’sambitioninlifeisifhehasany,saidAnnescornfully.
TherewasopenrivalrybetweenGilbertandAnnenow.
Previouslytherivalryhadbeenratheronesided,buttherewasnolongeranydoubtthatGilbertwasasdeterminedtobefirstinclassasAnnewas.Hewasafoemanworthyofhersteel.
Theothermembersoftheclasstacitlyacknowledgedtheirsuperiority,andneverdreamedoftryingtocompetewiththem.
Sincethedaybythepondwhenshehadrefusedtolistentohispleaforforgiveness,Gilbert,savefortheaforesaiddeterminedrivalry,hadevincednorecognitionwhateveroftheexistenceofAnneShirley.
Hetalkedandjestedwiththeothergirls,exchangedbooksandpuzzleswiththem,discussedlessonsandplans,sometimeswalkedhomewithoneortheotherofthemfromprayermeetingorDebatingClub.
ButAnneShirleyhesimplyignored,andAnnefoundoutthatitisnotpleasanttobeignored.
Itwasinvainthatshetoldherselfwithatossofherheadthatshedidnotcare.
Deepdowninherwayward,femininelittleheartsheknewthatshedidcare,andthatifshehadthatchanceoftheLakeofShiningWatersagainshewouldanswerverydifferently.
Allatonce,asitseemed,andtohersecretdismay,shefoundthattheoldresentmentshehadcherishedagainsthimwasgonegonejustwhenshemostneededitssustainingpower.
Itwasinvainthatsherecalledeveryincidentandemotionofthatmemorableoccasionandtriedtofeeltheoldsatisfyinganger.
Thatdaybythepondhadwitnesseditslastspasmodicflicker.
Annerealizedthatshehadforgivenandforgottenwithoutknowingit.Butitwastoolate.
AndatleastneitherGilbertnoranybodyelse,notevenDiana,shouldeversuspecthowsorryshewasandhowmuchshewishedshehadn’tbeensoproudandhorrid!
Shedeterminedtoshroudherfeelingsindeepestoblivion,anditmaybestatedhereandnowthatshedidit,sosuccessfullythatGilbert,whopossiblywasnotquitesoindifferentasheseemed,couldnotconsolehimselfwithanybeliefthatAnnefelthisretaliatoryscorn.
TheonlypoorcomforthehadwasthatshesnubbedCharlieSloane,unmercifully,continually,andundeservedly.
Otherwisethewinterpassedawayinaroundofpleasantdutiesandstudies.
ForAnnethedaysslippedbylikegoldenbeadsonthenecklaceoftheyear.
Shewashappy,eager,interested;therewerelessonstobelearnedandhonortobewon;delightfulbookstoread;newpiecestobepracticedfortheSunday-schoolchoir;pleasantSaturdayafternoonsatthemansewithMrs.Allan;andthen,almostbeforeAnnerealizedit,springhadcomeagaintoGreenGablesandalltheworldwasabloomoncemore.
Studiespalledjustaweebitthen;theQueen’sclass,leftbehindinschoolwhiletheothersscatteredtogreenlanesandleafywoodcutsandmeadowbyways,lookedwistfullyoutofthewindowsanddiscoveredthatLatinverbsandFrenchexerciseshadsomehowlostthetangandzesttheyhadpossessedinthecrispwintermonths.
EvenAnneandGilbertlaggedandgrewindifferent.
Teacherandtaughtwerealikegladwhenthetermwasendedandthegladvacationdaysstretchedrosilybeforethem.
Butyou’vedonegoodworkthispastyear,MissStacytoldthemonthelastevening,andyoudeserveagood,jollyvacation.
Havethebesttimeyoucanintheout-of-doorworldandlayinagoodstockofhealthandvitalityandambitiontocarryyouthroughnextyear.
Itwillbethetugofwar,youknowthelastyearbeforetheEntrance.
Areyougoingtobebacknextyear,MissStacy?askedJosiePye.
JosiePyeneverscrupledtoaskquestions;inthisinstancetherestoftheclassfeltgratefultoher;noneofthemwouldhavedaredtoaskitofMissStacy,butallwantedto,fortherehadbeenalarmingrumorsrunningatlargethroughtheschoolforsometimethatMissStacywasnotcomingbackthenextyearthatshehadbeenofferedapositioninthegradeschoolofherownhomedistrictandmeanttoaccept.
TheQueen’sclasslistenedinbreathlesssuspenseforheranswer.
Yes,IthinkIwill,saidMissStacy.Ithoughtoftakinganotherschool,butIhavedecidedtocomebacktoAvonlea.
Totellthetruth,I’vegrownsointerestedinmypupilsherethatIfoundIcouldn’tleavethem.SoI’llstayandseeyouthrough.
Hurrah!saidMoodySpurgeon.MoodySpurgeonhadneverbeensocarriedawaybyhisfeelingsbefore,andheblusheduncomfortablyeverytimehethoughtaboutitforaweek.
Oh,I’msoglad,saidAnne,withshiningeyes.
DearStacy,itwouldbeperfectlydreadfulifyoudidn’tcomeback.
Idon’tbelieveIcouldhavethehearttogoonwithmystudiesatallifanotherteachercamehere.
WhenAnnegothomethatnightshestackedallhertextbooksawayinanoldtrunkintheattic,lockedit,andthrewthekeyintotheblanketbox.
I’mnotevengoingtolookataschoolbookinvacation,shetoldMarilla.
I’vestudiedashardallthetermasIpossiblycouldandI’veporedoverthatgeometryuntilIknoweverypropositioninthefirstbookoffbyheart,evenwhenthelettersAREchanged.
IjustfeeltiredofeverythingsensibleandI’mgoingtoletmyimaginationrunriotforthesummer.Oh,youneedn’tbealarmed,Marilla.
I’llonlyletitrunriotwithinreasonablelimits.
ButIwanttohavearealgoodjollytimethissummer,formaybeit’sthelastsummerI’llbealittlegirl.
Mrs.LyndesaysthatifIkeepstretchingoutnextyearasI’vedonethisI’llhavetoputonlongerskirts.
ShesaysI’mallrunningtolegsandeyes.
AndwhenIputonlongerskirtsIshallfeelthatIhavetoliveuptothemandbeverydignified.
Itwon’tevendotobelieveinfairiesthen,I’mafraid;soI’mgoingtobelieveinthemwithallmywholeheartthissummer.
Ithinkwe’regoingtohaveaverygayvacation.
RubyGillisisgoingtohaveabirthdaypartysoonandthere’stheSundayschoolpicnicandthemissionaryconcertnextmonth.
AndMr.Barrysaysthatsomeeveninghe’lltakeDianaandmeovertotheWhiteSandsHotelandhavedinnerthere.
Theyhavedinnerthereintheevening,youknow.
JaneAndrewswasoveroncelastsummerandshesaysitwasadazzlingsighttoseetheelectriclightsandtheflowersandalltheladyguestsinsuchbeautifuldresses.
Janesaysitwasherfirstglimpseintohighlifeandshe’llneverforgetittoherdyingday.
Mrs.LyndecameupthenextafternoontofindoutwhyMarillahadnotbeenattheAidmeetingonThursday.WhenMarillawasnotatAidmeetingpeopleknewtherewassomethingwrongatGreenGables.
MatthewhadabadspellwithhisheartThursday,Marillaexplained,andIdidn’tfeellikeleavinghim.
Oh,yes,he’sallrightagainnow,buthetakesthemspellsoftenerthanheusedtoandI’manxiousabouthim.
Thedoctorsayshemustbecarefultoavoidexcitement.
That’seasyenough,forMatthewdoesn’tgoaboutlookingforexcitementbyanymeansandneverdid,buthe’snottodoanyveryheavyworkeitherandyoumightaswelltellMatthewnottobreatheasnottowork.Comeandlayoffyourthings,Rachel.You’llstaytotea?
Well,seeingyou’resopressing,perhapsImightaswell,staysaidMrs.Rachel,whohadnottheslightestintentionofdoinganythingelse.
Mrs.RachelandMarillasatcomfortablyintheparlorwhileAnnegottheteaandmadehotbiscuitsthatwerelightandwhiteenoughtodefyevenMrs.Rachel’scriticism.
ImustsayAnnehasturnedoutarealsmartgirl,admittedMrs.Rachel,asMarillaaccompaniedhertotheendofthelaneatsunset.Shemustbeagreathelptoyou.
Sheis,saidMarilla,andshe’srealsteadyandreliablenow.Iusedtobeafraidshe’dnevergetoverherfeatherbrainedways,butshehasandIwouldn’tbeafraidtotrustherinanythingnow.
Ineverwouldhavethoughtshe’dhaveturnedoutsowellthatfirstdayIwasherethreeyearsago,saidMrs.Rachel.
Lawfulheart,shallIeverforgetthattantrumofhers!
WhenIwenthomethatnightIsaystoThomas,saysI,Markmywords,Thomas,MarillaCuthbert’lllivetoruethestepshe’stook.’
ButIwasmistakenandI’mrealgladofit.
Iain’toneofthosekindofpeople,Marilla,ascanneverbebroughttoownupthatthey’vemadeamistake.
No,thatneverwasmyway,thankgoodness.
IdidmakeamistakeinjudgingAnne,butitweren’tnowonder,foranodder,unexpectederwitchofachildthereneverwasinthisworld,that’swhat.
Therewasnocipheringheroutbytherulesthatworkedwithotherchildren.
It’snothingshortofwonderfulhowshe’simprovedthesethreeyears,butespeciallyinlooks.
She’sarealprettygirlgottobe,thoughIcan’tsayI’moverlypartialtothatpale,big-eyedstylemyself.
Ilikemoresnapandcolor,likeDianaBarryhasorRubyGillis.RubyGillis’slooksarerealshowy.
ButsomehowIdon’tknowhowitisbutwhenAnneandthemaretogether,thoughsheain’thalfashandsome,shemakesthemlookkindofcommonandoverdonesomethinglikethemwhiteJuneliliesshecallsnarcissusalongsideofthebig,redpeonies,that’swhat.
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