Marillalaidherknittingonherlapandleanedbackinherchair. Hereyesweretired,andshethoughtvaguelythatshemustseeabouthavingherglasseschangedthenexttimeshewenttotown,forhereyeshadgrowntiredveryoftenoflate. Itwasnearlydark,forthefullNovembertwilighthadfallenaroundGreenGables,andtheonlylightinthekitchencamefromthedancingredflamesinthestove. AnnewascurledupTurk-fashiononthehearthrug,gazingintothatjoyousglowwherethesunshineofahundredsummerswasbeingdistilledfromthemaplecordwood. Shehadbeenreading,butherbookhadslippedtothefloor,andnowshewasdreaming,withasmileonherpartedlips. GlitteringcastlesinSpainwereshapingthemselvesoutofthemistsandrainbowsofherlivelyfancy;adventureswonderfulandenthrallingwerehappeningtoherincloudland—adventuresthatalwaysturnedouttriumphantlyandneverinvolvedherinscrapeslikethoseofactuallife. Marillalookedatherwithatendernessthatwouldneverhavebeensufferedtorevealitselfinanyclearerlightthanthatsoftminglingoffireshineandshadow. ThelessonofalovethatshoulddisplayitselfeasilyinspokenwordandopenlookwasoneMarillacouldneverlearn. Butshehadlearnedtolovethisslim,gray-eyedgirlwithanaffectionallthedeeperandstrongerfromitsveryundemonstrativeness. Herlovemadeherafraidofbeingundulyindulgent,indeed. Shehadanuneasyfeelingthatitwasrathersinfultosetone’sheartsointenselyonanyhumancreatureasshehadsethersonAnne,andperhapssheperformedasortofunconsciouspenanceforthisbybeingstricterandmorecriticalthanifthegirlhadbeenlessdeartoher. CertainlyAnneherselfhadnoideahowMarillalovedher. ShesometimesthoughtwistfullythatMarillawasveryhardtopleaseanddistinctlylackinginsympathyandunderstanding. Butshealwayscheckedthethoughtreproachfully,rememberingwhatsheowedtoMarilla. “Anne,”saidMarillaabruptly,“MissStacywasherethisafternoonwhenyouwereoutwithDiana.” Annecamebackfromherotherworldwithastartandasigh. “Wasshe?Oh,I’msosorryIwasn’tin.Whydidn’tyoucallme,Marilla? DianaandIwereonlyoverintheHauntedWood.It’slovelyinthewoodsnow. Allthelittlewoodthings—thefernsandthesatinleavesandthecrackerberries—havegonetosleep,justasifsomebodyhadtuckedthemawayuntilspringunderablanketofleaves. Ithinkitwasalittlegrayfairywitharainbowscarfthatcametiptoeingalongthelastmoonlightnightanddidit. Dianawouldn’tsaymuchaboutthat,though. DianahasneverforgottenthescoldinghermothergaveheraboutimaginingghostsintotheHauntedWood. IthadaverybadeffectonDiana’simagination.Itblightedit. Mrs.LyndesaysMyrtleBellisablightedbeing. IaskedRubyGilliswhyMyrtlewasblighted,andRubysaidsheguesseditwasbecauseheryoungmanhadgonebackonher. RubyGillisthinksofnothingbutyoungmen,andtheoldershegetstheworsesheis. Youngmenareallverywellintheirplace,butitdoesn’tdotodragthemintoeverything,doesit? DianaandIarethinkingseriouslyofpromisingeachotherthatwewillnevermarrybutbeniceoldmaidsandlivetogetherforever. Dianahasn’tquitemadeuphermindthough,becauseshethinksperhapsitwouldbenoblertomarrysomewild,dashing,wickedyoungmanandreformhim. DianaandItalkagreatdealaboutserioussubjectsnow,youknow. Wefeelthatwearesomucholderthanweusedtobethatitisn’tbecomingtotalkofchildishmatters. It’ssuchasolemnthingtobealmostfourteen,Marilla. MissStacytookallusgirlswhoareinourteensdowntothebrooklastWednesday,andtalkedtousaboutit. Shesaidwecouldn’tbetoocarefulwhathabitsweformedandwhatidealsweacquiredinourteens,becausebythetimeweweretwentyourcharacterswouldbedevelopedandthefoundationlaidforourwholefuturelife. Andshesaidifthefoundationwasshakywecouldneverbuildanythingreallyworthwhileonit. DianaandItalkedthematterovercominghomefromschool.Wefeltextremelysolemn,Marilla. Andwedecidedthatwewouldtrytobeverycarefulindeedandformrespectablehabitsandlearnallwecouldandbeassensibleaspossible,sothatbythetimeweweretwentyourcharacterswouldbeproperlydeveloped. It’sperfectlyappallingtothinkofbeingtwenty,Marilla. Itsoundssofearfullyoldandgrownup. ButwhywasMissStacyherethisafternoon?” “ThatiswhatIwanttotellyou,Anne,ifyou’llevergivemeachancetogetawordinedgewise.Shewastalkingaboutyou.” “Aboutme?”Annelookedratherscared.Thensheflushedandexclaimed: “Oh,Iknowwhatshewassaying.Imeanttotellyou,Marilla,honestlyIdid,butIforgot. MissStacycaughtmereadingBenHurinschoolyesterdayafternoonwhenIshouldhavebeenstudyingmyCanadianhistory.JaneAndrewslentittome. Iwasreadingitatdinnerhour,andIhadjustgottothechariotracewhenschoolwentin. Iwassimplywildtoknowhowitturnedout—althoughIfeltsureBenHurmustwin,becauseitwouldn’tbepoeticaljusticeifhedidn’t—soIspreadthehistoryopenonmydesklidandthentuckedBenHurbetweenthedeskandmyknee. IjustlookedasifIwerestudyingCanadianhistory,youknow,whileallthewhileIwasrevelinginBenHur. IwassointerestedinitthatInevernoticedMissStacycomingdowntheaisleuntilallatonceIjustlookedupandthereshewaslookingdownatme,soreproachful-like. Ican’ttellyouhowashamedIfelt,Marilla,especiallywhenIheardJosiePyegiggling. MissStacytookBenHuraway,butsheneversaidawordthen. Shekeptmeinatrecessandtalkedtome. ShesaidIhaddoneverywrongintworespects. First,IwaswastingthetimeIoughttohaveputonmystudies;andsecondly,IwasdeceivingmyteacherintryingtomakeitappearIwasreadingahistorywhenitwasastorybookinstead. Ihadneverrealizeduntilthatmoment,Marilla,thatwhatIwasdoingwasdeceitful.Iwasshocked. Icriedbitterly,andaskedMissStacytoforgivemeandI’dneverdosuchathingagain;andIofferedtodopenancebyneversomuchaslookingatBenHurforawholeweek,noteventoseehowthechariotraceturnedout. ButMissStacysaidshewouldn’trequirethat,andsheforgavemefreely. SoIthinkitwasn’tverykindofhertocomeupheretoyouaboutitafterall.” “MissStacynevermentionedsuchathingtome,Anne,anditsonlyyourguiltyconsciencethat’sthematterwithyou. Youhavenobusinesstobetakingstorybookstoschool.Youreadtoomanynovelsanyhow. WhenIwasagirlIwasn’tsomuchasallowedtolookatanovel.” “Oh,howcanyoucallBenHuranovelwhenit’sreallysuchareligiousbook?”protestedAnne. “Ofcourseit’salittletooexcitingtobeproperreadingforSunday,andIonlyreaditonweekdays. AndIneverreadANYbooknowunlesseitherMissStacyorMrs.Allanthinksitisaproperbookforagirlthirteenandthree-quarterstoread.MissStacymademepromisethat. Shefoundmereadingabookonedaycalled,TheLuridMysteryoftheHauntedHall. ItwasoneRubyGillishadlentme,and,oh,Marilla,itwassofascinatingandcreepy.Itjustcurdledthebloodinmyveins. ButMissStacysaiditwasaverysilly,unwholesomebook,andsheaskedmenottoreadanymoreofitoranylikeit. Ididn’tmindpromisingnottoreadanymorelikeit,butitwasAGONIZINGtogivebackthatbookwithoutknowinghowitturnedout. ButmyloveforMissStacystoodthetestandIdid. It’sreallywonderful,Marilla,whatyoucandowhenyou’retrulyanxioustopleaseacertainperson.” “Well,IguessI’lllightthelampandgettowork,”saidMarilla. “Iseeplainlythatyoudon’twanttohearwhatMissStacyhadtosay. You’remoreinterestedinthesoundofyourowntonguethaninanythingelse.” “Oh,indeed,Marilla,Idowanttohearit,”criedAnnecontritely.“Iwon’tsayanotherword—notone. IknowItalktoomuch,butIamreallytryingtoovercomeit,andalthoughIsayfartoomuch,yetifyouonlyknewhowmanythingsIwanttosayanddon’t,you’dgivemesomecreditforit.Pleasetellme,Marilla.” “Well,MissStacywantstoorganizeaclassamongheradvancedstudentswhomeantostudyfortheentranceexaminationintoQueen’s. Sheintendstogivethemextralessonsforanhourafterschool. AndshecametoaskMatthewandmeifwewouldliketohaveyoujoinit. Whatdoyouthinkaboutityourself,Anne? WouldyouliketogotoQueen’sandpassforateacher?” “Oh,Marilla!”Annestraightenedtoherkneesandclaspedherhands. “It’sbeenthedreamofmylife—thatis,forthelastsixmonths,eversinceRubyandJanebegantotalkofstudyingfortheEntrance. ButIdidn’tsayanythingaboutit,becauseIsupposeditwouldbeperfectlyuseless.I’dlovetobeateacher.Butwon’titbedreadfullyexpensive? Mr.AndrewssaysitcosthimonehundredandfiftydollarstoputPrissythrough,andPrissywasn’tadunceingeometry.” “Iguessyouneedn’tworryaboutthatpartofit. WhenMatthewandItookyoutobringupweresolvedwewoulddothebestwecouldforyouandgiveyouagoodeducation. Ibelieveinagirlbeingfittedtoearnherownlivingwhethersheeverhastoornot. You’llalwayshaveahomeatGreenGablesaslongasMatthewandIarehere,butnobodyknowswhatisgoingtohappeninthisuncertainworld,andit’sjustaswelltobeprepared. SoyoucanjointheQueen’sclassifyoulike,Anne.” “Oh,Marilla,thankyou.”AnneflungherarmsaboutMarilla’swaistandlookedupearnestlyintoherface. “I’mextremelygratefultoyouandMatthew. AndI’llstudyashardasIcananddomyverybesttobeacredittoyou. Iwarnyounottoexpectmuchingeometry,butIthinkIcanholdmyowninanythingelseifIworkhard.” “Idaresayyou’llgetalongwellenough. MissStacysaysyouarebrightanddiligent.” NotforworldswouldMarillahavetoldAnnejustwhatMissStacyhadsaidabouther;thatwouldhavebeentopampervanity. “Youneedn’trushtoanyextremeofkillingyourselfoveryourbooks.Thereisnohurry. Youwon’tbereadytotrytheEntranceforayearandahalfyet. Butit’swelltobeginintimeandbethoroughlygrounded,MissStacysays.” “Ishalltakemoreinterestthaneverinmystudiesnow,”saidAnneblissfully,“becauseIhaveapurposeinlife. Mr.Allansayseverybodyshouldhaveapurposeinlifeandpursueitfaithfully. Onlyhesayswemustfirstmakesurethatitisaworthypurpose. IwouldcallitaworthypurposetowanttobeateacherlikeMissStacy,wouldn’tyou,Marilla?Ithinkit’saverynobleprofession.” TheQueen’sclasswasorganizedinduetime. GilbertBlythe,AnneShirley,RubyGillis,JaneAndrews,JosiePye,CharlieSloane,andMoodySpurgeonMacPhersonjoinedit. DianaBarrydidnot,asherparentsdidnotintendtosendhertoQueen’s. ThisseemednothingshortofacalamitytoAnne. Never,sincethenightonwhichMinnieMayhadhadthecroup,hadsheandDianabeenseparatedinanything. OntheeveningwhentheQueen’sclassfirstremainedinschoolfortheextralessonsandAnnesawDianagoslowlyoutwiththeothers,towalkhomealonethroughtheBirchPathandVioletVale,itwasalltheformercoulddotokeepherseatandrefrainfromrushingimpulsivelyafterherchum. Alumpcameintoherthroat,andshehastilyretiredbehindthepagesofherupliftedLatingrammartohidethetearsinhereyes. NotforworldswouldAnnehavehadGilbertBlytheorJosiePyeseethosetears. “But,oh,Marilla,IreallyfeltthatIhadtastedthebitternessofdeath,asMr.AllansaidinhissermonlastSunday,whenIsawDianagooutalone,”shesaidmournfullythatnight. “IthoughthowsplendiditwouldhavebeenifDianahadonlybeengoingtostudyfortheEntrance,too. Butwecan’thavethingsperfectinthisimperfectworld,asMrs.Lyndesays. Mrs.Lyndeisn’texactlyacomfortingpersonsometimes,butthere’snodoubtshesaysagreatmanyverytruethings. AndIthinktheQueen’sclassisgoingtobeextremelyinteresting. JaneandRubyarejustgoingtostudytobeteachers.Thatistheheightoftheirambition. Rubysaysshewillonlyteachfortwoyearsaftershegetsthrough,andthensheintendstobemarried. Janesaysshewilldevoteherwholelifetoteaching,andnever,nevermarry,becauseyouarepaidasalaryforteaching,butahusbandwon’tpayyouanything,andgrowlsifyouaskforashareintheeggandbuttermoney. IexpectJanespeaksfrommournfulexperience,forMrs.Lyndesaysthatherfatherisaperfectoldcrank,andmeanerthansecondskimmings. JosiePyesayssheisjustgoingtocollegeforeducation’ssake,becauseshewon’thavetoearnherownliving;shesaysofcourseitisdifferentwithorphanswhoarelivingoncharity—THEYhavetohustle. MoodySpurgeonisgoingtobeaminister. Mrs.Lyndesayshecouldn’tbeanythingelsewithanamelikethattoliveupto. Ihopeitisn’twickedofme,Marilla,butreallythethoughtofMoodySpurgeonbeingaministermakesmelaugh. He’ssuchafunny-lookingboywiththatbigfatface,andhislittleblueeyes,andhisearsstickingoutlikeflaps. Butperhapshewillbemoreintellectuallookingwhenhegrowsup. CharlieSloanesayshe’sgoingtogointopoliticsandbeamemberofParliament,butMrs.Lyndesayshe’llneversucceedatthat,becausetheSloanesareallhonestpeople,andit’sonlyrascalsthatgetoninpoliticsnowadays.” “WhatisGilbertBlythegoingtobe?”queriedMarilla,seeingthatAnnewasopeningherCaesar. “Idon’thappentoknowwhatGilbertBlythe’sambitioninlifeis—ifhehasany,”saidAnnescornfully. TherewasopenrivalrybetweenGilbertandAnnenow. Previouslytherivalryhadbeenratheronesided,buttherewasnolongeranydoubtthatGilbertwasasdeterminedtobefirstinclassasAnnewas.Hewasafoemanworthyofhersteel. Theothermembersoftheclasstacitlyacknowledgedtheirsuperiority,andneverdreamedoftryingtocompetewiththem. Sincethedaybythepondwhenshehadrefusedtolistentohispleaforforgiveness,Gilbert,savefortheaforesaiddeterminedrivalry,hadevincednorecognitionwhateveroftheexistenceofAnneShirley. Hetalkedandjestedwiththeothergirls,exchangedbooksandpuzzleswiththem,discussedlessonsandplans,sometimeswalkedhomewithoneortheotherofthemfromprayermeetingorDebatingClub. ButAnneShirleyhesimplyignored,andAnnefoundoutthatitisnotpleasanttobeignored. Itwasinvainthatshetoldherselfwithatossofherheadthatshedidnotcare. Deepdowninherwayward,femininelittleheartsheknewthatshedidcare,andthatifshehadthatchanceoftheLakeofShiningWatersagainshewouldanswerverydifferently. Allatonce,asitseemed,andtohersecretdismay,shefoundthattheoldresentmentshehadcherishedagainsthimwasgone—gonejustwhenshemostneededitssustainingpower. Itwasinvainthatsherecalledeveryincidentandemotionofthatmemorableoccasionandtriedtofeeltheoldsatisfyinganger. Thatdaybythepondhadwitnesseditslastspasmodicflicker. Annerealizedthatshehadforgivenandforgottenwithoutknowingit.Butitwastoolate. AndatleastneitherGilbertnoranybodyelse,notevenDiana,shouldeversuspecthowsorryshewasandhowmuchshewishedshehadn’tbeensoproudandhorrid! Shedeterminedto“shroudherfeelingsindeepestoblivion,”anditmaybestatedhereandnowthatshedidit,sosuccessfullythatGilbert,whopossiblywasnotquitesoindifferentasheseemed,couldnotconsolehimselfwithanybeliefthatAnnefelthisretaliatoryscorn. TheonlypoorcomforthehadwasthatshesnubbedCharlieSloane,unmercifully,continually,andundeservedly. Otherwisethewinterpassedawayinaroundofpleasantdutiesandstudies. ForAnnethedaysslippedbylikegoldenbeadsonthenecklaceoftheyear. Shewashappy,eager,interested;therewerelessonstobelearnedandhonortobewon;delightfulbookstoread;newpiecestobepracticedfortheSunday-schoolchoir;pleasantSaturdayafternoonsatthemansewithMrs.Allan;andthen,almostbeforeAnnerealizedit,springhadcomeagaintoGreenGablesandalltheworldwasabloomoncemore. Studiespalledjustaweebitthen;theQueen’sclass,leftbehindinschoolwhiletheothersscatteredtogreenlanesandleafywoodcutsandmeadowbyways,lookedwistfullyoutofthewindowsanddiscoveredthatLatinverbsandFrenchexerciseshadsomehowlostthetangandzesttheyhadpossessedinthecrispwintermonths. EvenAnneandGilbertlaggedandgrewindifferent. Teacherandtaughtwerealikegladwhenthetermwasendedandthegladvacationdaysstretchedrosilybeforethem. “Butyou’vedonegoodworkthispastyear,”MissStacytoldthemonthelastevening,“andyoudeserveagood,jollyvacation. Havethebesttimeyoucanintheout-of-doorworldandlayinagoodstockofhealthandvitalityandambitiontocarryyouthroughnextyear. Itwillbethetugofwar,youknow—thelastyearbeforetheEntrance.” “Areyougoingtobebacknextyear,MissStacy?”askedJosiePye. JosiePyeneverscrupledtoaskquestions;inthisinstancetherestoftheclassfeltgratefultoher;noneofthemwouldhavedaredtoaskitofMissStacy,butallwantedto,fortherehadbeenalarmingrumorsrunningatlargethroughtheschoolforsometimethatMissStacywasnotcomingbackthenextyear—thatshehadbeenofferedapositioninthegradeschoolofherownhomedistrictandmeanttoaccept. TheQueen’sclasslistenedinbreathlesssuspenseforheranswer. “Yes,IthinkIwill,”saidMissStacy.“Ithoughtoftakinganotherschool,butIhavedecidedtocomebacktoAvonlea. Totellthetruth,I’vegrownsointerestedinmypupilsherethatIfoundIcouldn’tleavethem.SoI’llstayandseeyouthrough.” “Hurrah!”saidMoodySpurgeon.MoodySpurgeonhadneverbeensocarriedawaybyhisfeelingsbefore,andheblusheduncomfortablyeverytimehethoughtaboutitforaweek. “Oh,I’msoglad,”saidAnne,withshiningeyes. “DearStacy,itwouldbeperfectlydreadfulifyoudidn’tcomeback. Idon’tbelieveIcouldhavethehearttogoonwithmystudiesatallifanotherteachercamehere.” WhenAnnegothomethatnightshestackedallhertextbooksawayinanoldtrunkintheattic,lockedit,andthrewthekeyintotheblanketbox. “I’mnotevengoingtolookataschoolbookinvacation,”shetoldMarilla. “I’vestudiedashardallthetermasIpossiblycouldandI’veporedoverthatgeometryuntilIknoweverypropositioninthefirstbookoffbyheart,evenwhenthelettersAREchanged. IjustfeeltiredofeverythingsensibleandI’mgoingtoletmyimaginationrunriotforthesummer.Oh,youneedn’tbealarmed,Marilla. I’llonlyletitrunriotwithinreasonablelimits. ButIwanttohavearealgoodjollytimethissummer,formaybeit’sthelastsummerI’llbealittlegirl. Mrs.LyndesaysthatifIkeepstretchingoutnextyearasI’vedonethisI’llhavetoputonlongerskirts. ShesaysI’mallrunningtolegsandeyes. AndwhenIputonlongerskirtsIshallfeelthatIhavetoliveuptothemandbeverydignified. Itwon’tevendotobelieveinfairiesthen,I’mafraid;soI’mgoingtobelieveinthemwithallmywholeheartthissummer. Ithinkwe’regoingtohaveaverygayvacation. RubyGillisisgoingtohaveabirthdaypartysoonandthere’stheSundayschoolpicnicandthemissionaryconcertnextmonth. AndMr.Barrysaysthatsomeeveninghe’lltakeDianaandmeovertotheWhiteSandsHotelandhavedinnerthere. Theyhavedinnerthereintheevening,youknow. JaneAndrewswasoveroncelastsummerandshesaysitwasadazzlingsighttoseetheelectriclightsandtheflowersandalltheladyguestsinsuchbeautifuldresses. Janesaysitwasherfirstglimpseintohighlifeandshe’llneverforgetittoherdyingday.” Mrs.LyndecameupthenextafternoontofindoutwhyMarillahadnotbeenattheAidmeetingonThursday.WhenMarillawasnotatAidmeetingpeopleknewtherewassomethingwrongatGreenGables. “MatthewhadabadspellwithhisheartThursday,”Marillaexplained,“andIdidn’tfeellikeleavinghim. Oh,yes,he’sallrightagainnow,buthetakesthemspellsoftenerthanheusedtoandI’manxiousabouthim. Thedoctorsayshemustbecarefultoavoidexcitement. That’seasyenough,forMatthewdoesn’tgoaboutlookingforexcitementbyanymeansandneverdid,buthe’snottodoanyveryheavyworkeitherandyoumightaswelltellMatthewnottobreatheasnottowork.Comeandlayoffyourthings,Rachel.You’llstaytotea?” “Well,seeingyou’resopressing,perhapsImightaswell,stay”saidMrs.Rachel,whohadnottheslightestintentionofdoinganythingelse. Mrs.RachelandMarillasatcomfortablyintheparlorwhileAnnegottheteaandmadehotbiscuitsthatwerelightandwhiteenoughtodefyevenMrs.Rachel’scriticism. “ImustsayAnnehasturnedoutarealsmartgirl,”admittedMrs.Rachel,asMarillaaccompaniedhertotheendofthelaneatsunset.“Shemustbeagreathelptoyou.” “Sheis,”saidMarilla,“andshe’srealsteadyandreliablenow.Iusedtobeafraidshe’dnevergetoverherfeatherbrainedways,butshehasandIwouldn’tbeafraidtotrustherinanythingnow.” “Ineverwouldhavethoughtshe’dhaveturnedoutsowellthatfirstdayIwasherethreeyearsago,”saidMrs.Rachel. “Lawfulheart,shallIeverforgetthattantrumofhers! WhenIwenthomethatnightIsaystoThomas,saysI,‘Markmywords,Thomas,MarillaCuthbert’lllivetoruethestepshe’stook.’ ButIwasmistakenandI’mrealgladofit. Iain’toneofthosekindofpeople,Marilla,ascanneverbebroughttoownupthatthey’vemadeamistake. No,thatneverwasmyway,thankgoodness. IdidmakeamistakeinjudgingAnne,butitweren’tnowonder,foranodder,unexpectederwitchofachildthereneverwasinthisworld,that’swhat. Therewasnocipheringheroutbytherulesthatworkedwithotherchildren. It’snothingshortofwonderfulhowshe’simprovedthesethreeyears,butespeciallyinlooks. She’sarealprettygirlgottobe,thoughIcan’tsayI’moverlypartialtothatpale,big-eyedstylemyself. Ilikemoresnapandcolor,likeDianaBarryhasorRubyGillis.RubyGillis’slooksarerealshowy. Butsomehow—Idon’tknowhowitisbutwhenAnneandthemaretogether,thoughsheain’thalfashandsome,shemakesthemlookkindofcommonandoverdone—somethinglikethemwhiteJuneliliesshecallsnarcissusalongsideofthebig,redpeonies,that’swhat.”